Thursday, 14 February 2008

Blamed for what???

I seriously don’t understand what kind of mental satisfaction a teacher derives from taunting students who look come expecting for help…

Today… me and kesavan.. just for asking permission to use a CRO in any lab for our mini project... lab assistants were free, labs were free.. and hell.. only this Mr X had a problem… he claims we guys r not supposed to be inside the campus once the strike is called for… he says we wait for the teachers to leave the class to carry out our other activities… in particular “flirting”…

“Flirting” ... and that too to me and Kesavan…

This ought to be the worst experience I’ve had from anyone in our dept so far… how can a sir talk like this to someone who approaches him for help? Makes me rethink about being sincere to the department… of course one person shouldn’t turn out to be the reason for disliking the rest.. still.. I was really hurt… never expected any sir to talk in such a manner.. and to add to it all.. a sadistic, lopsided smile on his face at the end of his long babble.. that really got my goat…

Flirting… why on earth does anyone associate that term with us two? Am I wrong, people? And about this topic… I really think there’s nothing anyone can do about it except the subjects involved… they have the freedom to choose what they want, they’re all grown ups and should be able to understand whats right and whats wrong for them… if jus talking with each other can make them feel better, and if it does no harm in any way to themselves nor anyone else, why shouldn’t they? Not that I ‘m an activist for this “mode of communication”; and I personally believe myself to be lacking in any such “quality”; but being put to blame for such trivial activities that can never be associated with everyone is utterly ridiculous… and shame on the one who spoke about this too… if he has such a problem, why not address everyone and preach his principles, instead of picking on unpretentious souls who tread before him by dumb luck…

God… why is there so much of a ‘wavelengths of thought’ difference between “them” and “us”…

Being sincere towards teachers is a pupil’s dharma… that’s what has been taught to me since the time I could remember… and I frankly believe that contributes a great deal to a person’s luck factor… making fun of mannerisms, joking on teachers etc are common.. but again… anything is permissible if the respect for teachers is kept burning within….

I’ve faced really terrible teachers, brilliant ones, just-for-the-sake ones… but somehow I managed to find something to value in each one… hopefully that attitude shouldn’t change…. God… please… not atleast in this lifetime… Certain things make me what I am… whether for good or bad, I cannot judge… even if I can, I refuse to… I realize a lot of things… to prying eyes, I might not look a lot discerned… let it be that way… A few months back, Gemo had told me something like this while I showed him a poem: if I do something and if I don’t get acceptance from others, and if I keep thinking that God’s there to know my actions, I would not be getting that much satisfaction than if they did acknowledge…. Yeah kinda true… but it’s a lot better not to let the world know a lot about your actions… it might really screw things up, even if its meant for the good of others…

why worry… He’s always up there watching you… :-)

5 comments:

  1. Adding fire to the fury:
    1.He might have thought that you are a gay.
    2.He wanted u to learn the hard way.
    3.He did not like you admiring all teachers whatever they do and wanted to change your attitude towards them.
    4.He wanted to depress you and give you some much needed rest.
    Cant blame him!

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  2. it's all getting clearer day by day..

    sometime back they split the seating of boys and gals fearing they wud 'over'mingle.. just now they're realizing the mistake - we've become gay..

    it's just like 'upto' became 'not including', 'novelty' became 'a word not contained in dictionary', and 'eagerness to learn something' we've not learned became 'atrocity towards the moral and scientific temper of teachers'

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  3. @jfx

    i liked the last para of ur comment...

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